I find it useful to take a hard look at myself in the mirror every 1 or 2 days.
What stupid things am I doing that I should stop doing? Where am I weak? What’s going well in life? What isn’t going well? What aspects of my life are needing attention? What ideas should I integrate into my belief system and what should I let go?
These are the types of questions I ask myself.
Here’s something I realized recently. I like how exhilerating life is when I:
Am emotionally honest and vulnerable
Am concise
Aim at ambitious goals (i.e., think big)
Venture into the scary unknown in the hopes of gaining/learning something of value
I haven’t done these 4 things for most of my life, but I have over the past few months.
I’m glad to have made these changes. I wonder what else I’m doing (or not doing) that is making life less exhilerating than it could be? My best guess is that I need to first double down on each of the 4 points above before the next blindspot will reveal itself to me.
In that vein, I’ll admit something that I’m embarrassed about.
It hit me the other day that I haven’t had a long-term relationship in 13 years. I’ve also only had a handful of short-term relationships in that time. Like, what!? Why so few?!
The convenient answer is that I was just too busy with work. I have been self-employed for that long after all and I’ve always worked long hours.
The real answer has two parts.
At first, I was a chicken. Bawk-bawk. I wouldn’t tell people I liked how I felt about them. I was also self-conscious about how people close to me would view me for being in a relationship.
After that, being single just became a part of my identity. Simple as that.
Now I’m curious to date.
How do people find each other, lol? How do dating apps work? What pictures should I put? What’s being in a relationship even like?
I admit it’s kind of fun wandering into a new arena of life knowing nothing about it.
For example, that’s why I made about 100 podcast episodes before ever listening to anyone else’s podcast. It was fun to say, “I make podcasts, but don’t know what a podcast is or what I’m doing.”
Not sure what else to write, so let’s wrap up here.
Thanks for reading! Talk to you tomorrow.
Azren
"What stupid things am I doing that I should stop doing?" This is a really excellent question to ask yourself and can be a key to health and happiness. Some of mine which I have been addressing recently are: giving someone far too much help with something (that put loads of stress on me) which they should be doing themselves; looking at and discussing news (which winds me up) too close to bedtime; obsessively doing an activity which ended up bringing on my repetitive strain issue. Thanks for reminding me I need to ask myself this question regularly!😁